We pray daily for the child God plans to add to our family and that He will prepare us to be the best family we can be for this child. We also pray that God will comfort this child and his/her family to know that we will love this new addition without bias. Often we are asked by those who care about us how the process is going. We explain that our home study is ready and that we are waiting, hoping, and praying for a child. There are times when we hear about children needing a home or having just missed an opportunity to parent a child being placed with another family. Even recently, I heard about a young girl in the Alabama community where I used to live who aborted a baby. I was crushed and heartbroken. Still, I know that God already knows the plans he has in store for us and our child. We continue to wait and pray.
While we are approved to adopt an infant should an expectant mother select us, I have been seeking out opportunities for older children, but younger than Jack, as well. I search daily. Can you imagine? Every single day I search. There have been a couple of opportunities that we did not feel were in the best interest of our family. There were some that we were denied, because the children could not be placed out of their home state. Others we could not adopt, because their age was too close to Jack's age. There was always a reason. Still, I know God has a plan.
There has been this one little boy whose face stood out to me each time I looked at his agency. I never asked about him, because his age was too close to Jack's according to the agency's policy. Still, he was beautiful to me, just beautiful. Every single day since July 1st I have seen his face looking at mine, even while I was looking for little girls because Jack wanted a sister. Recently, I began to think maybe we should be more open. So, I started considering boys and girls. I figured, what is one more "no"? I'll just inquire about the little boy whose face smiles at me everyday when I search for Jack's sibling. This time, we were not told "no." We are currently at a "maybe." Our bio has been accepted and we have been invited to submit our home study ASAP. I did that today. We are just so excited and praying that we will know and accept God's will.
Either way it won't be easy. If this little boy joins our family, there will be an adjustment period for us all. If he doesn't, he still needs a family; and we keep looking for a child. Please keep us in your prayers.